It has took a long long time for me to become quite content in who I am, (personality wise, I could still stand to lose a few pounds... Of baggage, ya cheeky bastard.) This has meant that I have become much more confident, and as a knock on effect, far far more gobby. It has got to a point where I have to bite my tongue to stop me telling people to fuck off, which would of been pretty useful a few years ago in school, but with it becoming a new skill, I have to control it. As is life, I suppose.
I feel that a lot of the people I am friends with could stand to cut themselves a bit of slack when it comes to certain things. It's hard to love yourself, but once you start your little journey of self worth, you begin to realise how truly mint you are as a person, and if people don't want you as part of their life, then fuck them. It's their loss, not yours. Oh woe is you, you are losing one more negative person from your life. Come on now lad, you don't need a voice out loud telling you how you are messing up, or what you could do better, when we are all already our own worst critics right here, in our heads.
I assume, unless you are my mum, (my biggest fan, hiya mam) then you are around my age group. And because of this, I can in the least patronising way possible, hand you one piece of advice;
You are allowed to make mistakes!
That lad in that club that you were so sure was twenty but had actually just turned eighteen, who you snogged the face off? (Happened to a friend... Not me... Kinda) Just a minor blip in the long scheme of things.
Waking up next to a mayonnaise bottle and fifteen pastic pint glasses? Just a mistake... No biggie.
Having to wear tights for two long weeks of the heat wave in summer because your vodka bruises were enough to put small children off the climbing frame? Don't worry about it!
Drunk dialing your ex whilst Gotye's finest hit is on in a club and forcing him to listen? Cringey, but it's okay!
Every "minor blip" as I will call it (this can be anything from snogging people you shouldn't be, to restarting university for your own health, and sanity) will not be a big deal, and as me and my best friend have come to call it, "A learning curve". At the risk of sounding like my grandma, we are the masters of our own destiny, and we cannot let other peoples opinions on our life choices effect us. When you decide to not care about anyone else's opinion apart from your own, that is when you have truly learnt self love, self worth, and if you're anything like me, it will genuinely make you feel relieved with a kind of light happiness.
So go out there, and find yourself a learning curve! (because if you can't do it when you're young, when can you do it?)
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